Bird with broken wing.

Bird with broken wing
Locked up inside
A tiny cage
Till the day I heard your cry
And set you free

But as I reached in
To heal the hurt
You fled in wild dismay
Now your pain
Has made you blind as you can be

Echoes in the distance
Are almost all you hear from me
Each time I speak your name
You flee away

While the agonies of mindless flight
Grow more than you can bare
Still you think it's because of me
That you feel this way

Soarin' far above the storm
On wings spread strong and wide
Is the vision that you've buried
In despair

You dash yourself against the stones
And flutter terrified
When my love will heal your wounds
And lift you there

Like a frightened child
Who starts away with every move
You want to trust
But watch so fearfully

Everything you're longing for
Is here within my hands
I'm waiting now for you
To come to me

Soarin' far above the storm
On wings spread strong and wide
Is the vision that you've buried
In despair

You dash yourself against the stones
And flutter terrified
When my love will heal your wounds
And lift you there

Like a frightened child
Who starts away with every move
You want to trust
But watch so fearfully

Everything you're longing for
Is here within my hands
I'm waiting now for you
To come to me

I'm waiting now for you
To come to me
I'm waiting now for you
To come to me

Lyrics: Don Francisco

Bird with broken wing - Don Francisco

Trust in God is all it takes. He can heal the wounds and lift me there. There where i'm meant to be.

Believing in God.

I believe that there is a God and with that i am the same as lots of other people. The way i see things however are different then how most others see their belief.

Some years ago i found God and i changed. I became a better person and i really believed that God helped me to be a better person. When i needed help then i just asked God to help me and He did. I was very glad that He helped me and wondered how this almighty God who must be very busy controlling the whole universe found the time to help an unsignificant person like me. I saw this as being a child walking on a straight and narrow path being guided and holding the hand of God. Then you grow up and you are no longer a child but become an adult. Adults are supposed to take their own responsibillity and should have learned how to live their life. This is where i am now. Still walking on that narrow path with God, but not holding His hand, i should know now where to go.

In my belief in God i am not a sheep either. I have dipped my toe in Judaism, and i litterally dipped my toe (and whole body) in christianity, but it wasn't for me. To phrase it in an other way, religion is not for me. It seems to me that religion is more about sheep herding then anything else. And i am not a sheep.
I have read the Torah/Tanach and the apostolic writings, but also tried to find the origins of these books. Why were these books written? What made them write these books and who wrote them? What were they thinking back then and how did the world look like back then? In searching for answers i did see things different, seeing what was written in context. Now i definetly don't see these books as the written words that came straight from God. The books are written by men, not because God told them to, but because these men wanted to write these books. Of course i make it very simple, but i don't like to make things more complicated then they have to be. This doesn't mean that i reject these books, there are a lot of sensible things written in these books. But also a lot of things that are irrelevant for me. So how do i know how to live my life the way God wants me to? Well, as written above the Torah/Tanach and many other books, and of course the internet are a great source for inspiration. And then there's my upbringing/conditioning and my conscience. These also tell me how to live my life and be a good person. And there's my common sense. Maybe the latter is the most important part of it all. Maybe God has put the knowledge of how to live according to His way in every human being, and it is up to us wether we use that knowledge or not. One thing i know for sure, God has created this world and everything on/in it, and He created human beings with a mind that can think and reason. And with that we have free choice. We can choose to do good and we have the choice to do evil. God did that for a purpose. But why?
It would have been so much easier to make us robots with a fixed program, but instead we are not. On the contrary, every human being is unique, there is not one person who is exactly the same as an other person. And why don't we celebrate this fact? If you think of it, the world would be very boring when we were all the same.  

But who is God and what does he want from me? Here's my very simple answer, He's my creator and He wants me to be the person who He created. And it's up to me to be that person.